Life is good. I wake up every morning to happily embrace the new day and look forward to the things I have to do. That was not always the case.

You probably wouldn’t recognise me today if you’d only seen me some eight to ten years ago, but I really have to put in a word of praise to my friends and family here, because they knew me all the way; right from the beginning. I honestly didn’t recognise myself when looking in the mirror back then.

Life (and certain individuals) have honestly returned to me what was taken away from me (and in the end what I even gave away myself) and what I only ever dreamed of since.

I feel I’ve returned to the world of man, happy and healthy people, which was something very distant to me for a long time.

Basically my life has been a series of drastic ups and downs. But in some strange way, which I can hardly describe, over the past month or two, I’ve had the feeling of ‘reaching a level’. Or better, ‘levelling out’ in my life. And touching base. Which means a lot to me.

My life is surrounded by the people (and doggies) I love and no one else. I don’t have to deal with anyone I don’t wish to and that’s the great thing. My fiancee is always around to embrace and share words of love with, my doggie – Ganga – to, equally, hug and play with or simply glance at to find loving looks and semi-closed eyes smiling back at me.

Things are changing – drastically.

What also added to this change, was that I finally got that ‘family thing’ out the way. Concerning his family, I have to say. Talking behind my back, speaking ugly words, envy, loss of trust and, all in all, hearing completely rediculous, false statements spread around about me. So now I’m free of all that and from trying, trying so hard to fight a losing battle, to be accepted, loved and thinking I can get through to everyone. But then again, I should know better – given my own family history – that family is often (in the worst case) just an exception in life and that ‘you chose your friends’ and are best sticking to those.

We’re hoping to get a house soon – as soon as we have enough means. And then life will really change.

I actually do believe in Karma. Very definitely. That whatever happens to someone, there is a reason for it and that it fits into a whole, bigger picture. I don’t believe in ‘God’ as such – am an atheist never babtised into any religion and happy for it – but I do, funnily enough, have many religious, i.e. metaphysical beliefs.

I’d wanted to go on to study metaphysics for a while after my bachelor in London and also checked out a course on Holistic Science for a while. Unfortunately, I wasn’t accepted after going to Liverpool and attending the application interview (wasn’t the right time for me, obviously). Now I have no means to study or work (in a fixed job that is) or anything else for that matter. So I have to do it myself. And that is where writing comes in.

I might even post some exerpts I’ve written, here on this blog, to give you a taste.

I guess people need time to master their life. That only comes through experience and personal development. If you can learn from your mistakes, that’s already a good start. Fighting and standing up again after a lost battle is also important. Being a spiritual warrior is also a good thing. That’s how I like to see myself. Spreading love (the best job in the world!) and bringing a little justice to it. That is my job.

By the way, if you have anything on your mind, something that’s bothering you or that you just want to share in an intimate surrounding, you can do so here. That’s why I initially set up the www.ask-roebok.com site, so that people can get advice from someone (perhaps very far away from their home), who’ll give an objective and fresh view on the matter. After all, I studied psychology and should have learnt a little through that.

No, kidding, I always said I learn more in one day of life than one year of the course. But it was a great university, there in Southeast London.

But anyway, if you want to write something then please do (or check out my ask-roebok.com site and send me a question – it’s only a really young site and still under development, but.. perhaps you like it!).

Well, enough thoughts for the day, hopefully other topics will be popping up in this blog soon enough for you to stroll through.

Yours,

x roebok x